Are you listening?

I awoke the other morning with a booming voice -- not mine -- in my head:

"Are you listening to me?" 

Good question. 

Hmmm... 

... listening now. 

Breathing. 

I have been busy being busy. I have been doing, not being. Trying to fill the space, the void. Not listening. It all feels important, and likely is, at least somewhat. And my job right now is, in part, to listen. To pay attention. That's where the good stuff resides. 

Ambiguity. That's where I need to be right now. Clarity will come if I let it. I don't want the same, I want what's next, what's better. Dream. Create. Expand. 

Onward.  

Forging a new path

((I'm not sure where the graphic accompanying
this quote originated but it's speaking to me so
thank you to whomever  I borrowed it from;
if credit is due, please let me know.)) 

Life is nothing if not a journey. I think we all know this by now.

I have written a lot about change on this blog; it seems I'm always in the midst of one change or another. You could say I'm an expert by now. At least at navigating my own.


So here I go again. 


This time I'm doing things a little differently, though; rather than reluctantly adapting (freelancing) or frantically driving (specific end goal), I'm working on the 'dream a new dream' part and embracing what's next as it shows up. I can't say I'm clear yet on where I'm headed. I'm still in the "be comfortable being uncomfortable" stage of not knowing.

That said, some of the puzzle pieces are starting to show themselves. The cover art and center pieces are still missing, but I'm getting a glimmer of the outer fringes. And I like what I see so far!

It's both exciting and scary (funny how these two emotions share physical sensations). I think it was Eleanor Roosevelt who said something like 'do something each day that scares you'. I have read variations of that lately, from several sources. This place where I am right now feels a little scary, every day, and rather than trying to fix it or make it go away, I am staying with it. Acknowledging it, naming it, allowing it to be.

I'll share more when I gain a bit more clarity and can articulate what's showing up.