Gray day

Not really a gardening post today... sorry...

The gray sky is an adequate reflection of where I'm at today... Not stormy, not sunny... just gray. The wind also suggests the ever-changing movement of my focus. There are touches of blue out there, I can see them. But the gray overpowers. I have some new context today, though, which has shifted my understanding, compassion, anger and sadness. Doesn't make anything easier or harder, just different...

pm update
Lots of reading and research this evening... perhaps I should change the name of the blog to Growing Inner Strength, or Growing Understanding, or something... I get it, but I don't know what to do with it. Despite the newly realized understanding, it doesn't make the previously felt emotions automatically go away; in some ways, it's worse, because there's little I can do, and that adds to feeling helpless. I can take care of me, but I still want to do more.